Something personal!

When I got pregnant I was determined I would breast feed. Nothing would stop me. Yet when the time came. Emotionally I was not prepared for the lack of control I would be facing. I often learned that sometimes things really aren't as they seem. Well let me tell you something very personal bout me. I have been on WIC to help me get up on my feet. Well when I had applied I felt it would be easy. I would go into a store. Get my food. Give the cashier my check and put my groceries in my car. Ha! Boy, was I kidding myself. It isn't that simple. I am lacking that extra hand. The one that helps me know the food I can and can not get. The hand to hold when it feels as every possible eye in the store is on you and the hand that helps you remember what this was all for. Yet these moments of every month I have been extremely blessed meeting people. Ones I would of never knew existed. Not because I wasn't looking. But because I am reminded how to bond with people, how to have conversations with strangers. How a little help can go a long way and even when I feel everyone is watching. I know how it feels to be this low. I know how it feels to not have the means to take care of yourself and just how hard that can be emotionally. So sometimes the situations that seem the hardest on you emotionally. There is a lesson to be learned In that moment. Just gotta search for it!!