Bananas, hot dogs, french fries, salsa...what is this you say? Stomach tightens, tired all the time...as if I haven't slept in years. Food cravings it feels as though I can't control...bathroom? Where is one? Food? You name it...water? Where is my wonder woman cup? Fat? Clothes don't fit? What's that you say? Welll this is what people don't tell you when you get pregnant...you don't hear about the every 2 hours of getting up and going the bathroom in the middle of the night. The times that you would rather shop for your baby, cause clothes are cheaper, clothes seem cuter and seem as though they would fit longer then what I'll ever fit in..days are getting closer, the count down begins. Do I get scared? Do I get excited? is it even worth thinking about? Well I can tell you that thee emotions are bound to happen regardless, annoyed, crying and angry.. it's all gonna happen at once. It will feel as though you wont be able to control any emotions. But amongst all these things you don't hear when getting pregnant. No emotions can be put on the fact that in a matter of weeks a belly can go flat to a bump..to a bump to an oh my gosh where did this come from? To the fishy flatter in the belly..to the gas feeling that a baby is in there, to all of a sudden one day where your belly LOOKS like it has something that is gonna bulge it's way out of you..it's hard when mornings go from throwing everything up the night before..to nothing sounding good with fear you may throw it up to where you will wake up and she will be sitting on your bladder and it feels as though everything is going to fall out of you...to where it feels as though she could kick my rib out of place..it is amazing the strength of her little body already has... it is thee most overwhelming feeling at the end of the day though to know that you get to be a momma...and when you Find a doctor who mows every fear, insecurity and things that don't make sense. It sure makes everything in the world feel alright. From personal experience i have been extremely blessed to find a doctor who makes light hearted of all of the things I feel like don't seem normal, he makes me laugh and turns every experience I'm going thru to see how we can make it a reality show and will answer any questions I have no matter how it sounds in my head...it's like he gets it. He knows most times then not I am just scared and will helps me feel okay again. Sooo at the end of the day..let's just say being pregnant isn't always what it seems..but nothing comes close to the moments I get tired of crying. I feel like nobody understands and feeling her movement brings nothing but comfort to know I am doin the best job I can and being blessed to become a mother is the best blessing anyone has ever gave me!
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