Seeking peace within

Day one passes by...nothin! Day two passes...should of been somethin...but nothin again...day three is here and the news is about to make or break my day...feeling scared,  unsure, in denial, the voice on the other line tells me that your whole world is getting ready to change...ready or not! I didn't ever believe that when I got pregnant this little girl would put "hope" more to the test then lately....and when I say that, it simply is the ray of sunshine that comes out after sitting in the darkness and nothing has seemed to go your way. On October 27th my whole world changed..the way I ate, how much I exercised would determine how much I would either deal with my body reacting to food or me choosing what to eat and not allowing the food to control me. Having diabetes when your pregnant puts a whole another emotion on you...In a whole new way. You simply feel limited,  you don't understand,  and you become more sensitive to how others handle your situation. I knew going into this trimester that it would be the long stretch...what I wasn't prepared for was the emotions that came with it all.. I wasn't expecting the times I would need to keep the tissues a little closer then I normally would,  I would need to keep a close friend around to allow me to vent out every frustration,  every misunderstanding and someone who pulled out the good in every situation I was given... my pregnancy is teaching me to appreciate the way things are going and look at things as empowerment and life experiences. They have taught me to smile at life when it throws out every possibility it can't happen.. it's taught me to trust what I don't understand is a lesson I am goin to learn when the timing is exactly right and I've gained the experience to hear the news. I truly believe we are taught who we are at the right timing and the right experiences.. and some of the greatest things we learn is finding peace within ourselves and not getting so caught up in what isn't and find what is... we then in a matter of seeking peace do we allow it to overflow in our lives to be calm in circumstances that don't come with all the answers.