Monday, September 1, 2014

Which gender is going to be my first Child....?

When I look at these pictures SO many things run thru my mind... her personality, her tenderness, her love that she shows, the way this baby teaches me how much you can love something SO small,  the way that this baby moves to voices and to sounds, how this baby has opened my heart...and has been soften for SO many different reasons! I have struggled since the day I got pregnant to get insurance, from different states to different circumstances, being around different friends and family, and from my financial situations to wondering how I am gonna take care of this little one...if I can barely take care of myself, prayers always seem to go up..and what seems to change! But lately I have found, its not the answers I have wanted...its the answers that have come, are ones that I never expected...ones are better blessings that I could of ever dreamed of myself. As simple as someone telling me how beautiful I am, telling me I was in their thoughts, coming by to visit, informing me news, by a simple smile, people who come up to me and told me that everything is going to be okay and I was going to get thru it!
Well I have to tell you in my world with so many emotions I am having to strengthen as my financial turns into something new. My first ultrasound that was going to finally change everything no matter what it was going to bring me good news....It all happened so fast, first things first we began by talking to different girls at the school. (Because since I cant afford anything, I was informed if you live in AZ you are able to go to the school and get free Ultrasounds) Well the fun began when in an instant when up on the screen I saw my babies head..it covered the whole screen. HOW could this be! My baby was HUGE..with so many emotions that ran thru my mind... all I wanted to know is what gender could possibly be. I was praying for a girl...I have been around brothers my whole life and well for so many reasons I could tell you why it needed to be a little girl...
I am pleased to announce...ITS A GIRL!
I can not wait to bring this little girl into the world. She is changing my life, she is a scrim worm, she is a teaching me to have Hope, she gets everything in my body to change, she is the reason I wake up, she is the reason I cant wait for whats ahead..she surprises me everyday. She is smart, she is shy, she makes me wanna eat foods that I never would of wanted if it wasnt for her! She has definitely made me even more happy and excited of my fetish for TINY things. :)

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